What a difference...

Less than 2 months ago, I was on top of the world - work was going great, I was in love with the greatest woman on the planet, bills were dwindling...apart from some upcoming bumps in the road I had known about things were pretty much awesome.

And then everything fell apart.

Work is still going well, so I am not really complaining about that - though things have slowed a bunch and sales are definitely at a premium.

My relationship crumbled apart in the span of about 3 weeks - and I had very little to do with it, really.

Made some fantastic mistakes which is going to cost me $$$...hopefully not much, though.

And I am incredibly empty and alone now.

All of this really sucks, but I know one thing - I AM STRONGER THAN ALL OF THIS.  I am better than this and I definitely deserve better.  I am working hard at improving ME in the meantime and turning all this negative energy and anger into something better.  I am losing weight again (healthily), running longer and farther than ever, and pushing myself in the gym.

I am playing more guitar than I have in years and actually doing a gig with a friend next week back in NY.  It's his gig, but I'm gonna sit in and play a bunch of songs. We did this in August as well...was a great time and I am looking forward to this go 'round.

Got a killer concert to shoot this Friday - Chris Cornell solo at the Balboa Theatre.  THAT is going to be awesome, though I no longer have anyone to go with.  A little bittersweet.

Anyways, that is what has been happening and why I had been posting so much 'down' stuff.  I am still down, and I probably will be for a while.  I still love her and miss her terribly.

I'll bounce back.  Better than ever...